Episode 1 
Air Date: 09/22/2004 

The hardest part about tonight was watching the expressions on the women's faces while I was handing out the roses. They had this look of anticipation and hope, and it just killed me knowing that I couldn't ask them all to stay, but I know they understood how I felt. Last night when the women were deciding between Jay and I, we both had that same look of hope in our eyes. They chose to send Jay home, and tonight, I had to send 10 of them home. It wasn't easy.

There were a few tears tonight. Abby looked especially sad, and that was difficult. But there were also some great moments. Cindy was among the women who looked thrilled when I called her name. I have no doubt that I chose the best 15 women for me. They are beautiful, intelligent, fun and I can't wait to get to know them better. 

At this point, I feel like I got over the first two big hurdles. The rose ceremony with me and Jay is over. The first rose ceremony with the women and me is over. Now it's time to really get to know these 15 women, and I can't wait. 

Episode 2 
Air Date: 09/29/2004 

Tonight's Rose Ceremony was incredibly important to me. I'm really starting to get to know these women on much more than a physical level and starting to feel something for them. I didn't want to make the wrong decision. 

I decided to keep Krista tonight because, in addition to her just being a great person, she'll keep everybody laughing and relaxed in the house. She lightens the mood and creates this great atmosphere that makes us all really comfortable. I really like that about her. 

Jane intrigues me. She's acting the exact opposite of everybody else, actually making me pursue her. If she's playing a game, she's playing it very well; if it's not a game, it's still working — but in the next couple of dates, I have to figure out if she'll open up and come out of her shell a little more. 

I let Natalie go because she and I just weren't connecting on a lot of levels and I felt as though she wanted to be with somebody that had not had any history of marriage in the past. 

When it came to Ashley, I was never really able to uncover anything about her other than she's just a really nice, pleasant girl. We just didn't relate to each other anymore than that.

Kristy has this really great energy that I love. She's exciting to me. She's talkative and vibrant, and she's really into me, too. 

Cheresse has also grown on me pretty quickly after our first date. She's beautiful, elegant, in a good place, and I'm very attracted to her. I feel the same way with Andrea, even though we haven't spent a lot of time together. But the things Andrea and I have shared so far have been very meaningful. 

I have to believe — and honestly do — that my soul mate is one of the remaining women. It's exciting to know that she's one of 10 now instead of one of 25, but at the same time, it's still early. I'm still operating a lot on gut feeling, but I see the little rays of light in each of the ladies' personalities. I haven't gotten anywhere near the sun yet, but I see it. 

Episode 3 
Air Date: 10/06/2004 

The Rose Ceremony tonight was far more difficult than I'd imagined it would be. I kept looking at faces of the women I knew weren't going to be here tomorrow, and I could see the hope in their eyes. It was impossibly hard to know they'd soon be upset and hurt because of me. 

I let Amanda go mainly because she's young. We're at different places in our lives right now and it just wasn't meant to be. Susie I doubted romantically because I felt she doubted me; I think she was ready to go home, and it was time to let her go. I didn't feel a big connection with Heather, and I had no problem saying goodbye to her. I think Kristie is a beautiful woman but I know she's not my soul mate; I'm here to find the person I can spend the rest of my life with, and Kristie is not that person. 

One of the best moments tonight was seeing Cyndi's face light up when I offered her a rose; she seems like she's always holding her breath at the Ceremonies and it was nice to relieve her stress. I gave Krysta a rose because she's a fun and energetic girl; she's the life of the party and the girls seem to love her. I'm still intrigued with Elizabeth. She's very articulate, a huge philanthropist and I need to get to know her better. And I think Tanya is a wonderful human being. She's a saint; she works with handicapped children, she's beautiful and she's very impressive to me.

I'm confused with Jayne; this was the second time I've given her a rose where she was the only one to simply grab it without even touching my hand. I was disappointed to say the least. I'm really putting myself out there in this experience and I expect the same in return.

These Rose Ceremonies are mutual decisions; I'm offering and they're giving. And when I do offer a rose, I hope for reciprocation. I know that between now and the next Ceremony I need to make sure the remaining women are as interested in me as I am in them. I'm going to do a lot of soul searching and really think about which woman could possibly be my future wife. 

Episode 4 
Air Date: 10/20/2004 

As I've already learned, the hardest part of the Rose Ceremonies is to look a woman in the eye and know she'll shortly be hurt by something I'm about to do. Tonight was no different — the women smiled at me and I smiled back, but it hurt every time Elizabeth and Krysta caught my eye. 

It was hard to have someone as beautiful and smart as Elizabeth leave. Part of me had a great attraction to her, but in the end, I think we were only meant to be friends and I think she felt the same. Afterwards, she wished me well and told me there were great women here. I assured her she was one of the great ones and wished her luck. I hope she finds what she's looking for.

Krysta was fun to have around the house; she was sort of the glue that held all the girls together and, in that respect, she'll be missed. When I said goodbye to Krysta, I was very happy to see she did exactly what I expected her to do: she was classy and very complementary of the other women. She gave me a hug and wished me well, which I thought was very nice.

I'm so glad this Rose Ceremony is behind me. Now I can look ahead and concentrate on forming individual relationships with the six remaining women. All have qualities I'm extremely attracted to, and I feel like I'm learning even more about them through this dating process. The dates are helping me understand what these women are like, what makes them tick and how they react in certain situations. You can tell a lot about a woman when she's being splashed by water in a car boat or by having spiritual conversations in a fish aquarium. 

I firmly believe my wife, my soul mate and my life partner could easily — and should easily — be one of these six women. All I have to do is figure out which one. 

Episode 5 
Air Date: 10/27/2004 

I say it every week, but I honestly think tonight's Rose Ceremony was the hardest so far. Saying goodbye to Jayne and Andrea was nearly impossible, but at the same time, it was very different from previous weeks. 

Jayne really disappointed me tonight; I guess I shouldn't be surprised at what she said to me when we were saying goodbye, but I don't understand it. I felt she was very inappropriate, and I realized I never understood her before and certainly don't now. It was also hard seeing Andrea go, but I think we both felt we had a stronger bond as friends than romantically. She's a wonderful person, but she was ready to go and I was ready to let her.

Even with tonight's difficulties, there were a few standout moments. I gave Cindy the first rose and her personality just came right through. Even when she's trying to be serious and sober, she lights up. Then there's Mary — as always, she carried herself with such dignity and class tonight. She is a fantastic woman. And Tanya, the rock-steady staple in all this. Her emotions aren't all over the place, and that's really important in this environment. By the time I got to the last rose, I don't think Cheresse expected I'd offer it to her. I was glad she was not only happy, but even did a little dance with me just to be different. 

The hard part now is to put tonight behind me and look forward. I get to have four beautiful dates with four beautiful women I'm very attracted to. We get to finally be alone together, which is so valuable to help our relationships flourish. All of these women possess the qualities I've always looked for. Now I need to find the one I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with. 

Episode 6 
Air Date: 11/03/2004 

Tonight's Rose Ceremony was the springboard to hometown dates; it marked my move into the ladies' world. The next round of dates will give me the chance to meet their friends and see how they live, which made it incredibly hard to see Cheresse go tonight. It was difficult because I wasn't just saying goodbye to her, but also to whatever she was looking forward to showing me. I know she has a great support system of friends at home. She really enjoys her work and I think I would have been impressed and overwhelmed had I gone to her hometown. But I had to make a decision based on what I felt for her at this point.

I can't even begin to put myself in Cheresse's position right now. I know she's probably hurting a bit, as am I, but I don't want to project myself into her world because being in my world is difficult enough. At the same time, I can honestly say that, as hard as it was tonight, I don't have any regrets. I'm making conscious, sentient decisions I feel are true to me. I have yet to have a single regret in this process.

Before every Rose Ceremony, I look back all the way to my first impressions of these ladies. I go back and read my journal, which is incredibly important to me. I can't imagine going through this experience without my writing. It keeps me sane and helps me remember how I felt about the ladies through every step. 

Rose Ceremonies are a combination of anxiety and sorrow. But directly afterward, you immediately take a breath and realize you're actually looking forward to what lies ahead. I still have three beautiful, amazing women here, and I now I get to see where they live. I can't wait; I'm ready to go.

Episode 7 
Air Date: 11/10/2004 

I hadn't decided which two ladies to extend roses to tonight until my Last Chance Talks. During those, I realized I had to let Cindy go. I didn't want to hurt her or her family in the future, and at this point, I don't believe that she is my soul mate. The purpose of this experience is to find my life partner, and I realized tonight that Cindy is not that person.

I hope Cindy understands I didn't want to hurt her or her family. She told me not to extend her a rose if I wasn't certain she was the one. I wasn't. I know she must be hurting right now; I certainly am, but I think she'll find someone who's perfect for her, as will I.

I did extend Mary a rose tonight and I was thrilled to do it. The only worry I have with her at the moment is her concern about introducing me to her family, but I have to honor how she feels. I know Bob hurt her very badly and she doesn't want to live through that again. I have a very special bond with Mary and I know that, whether I meet her family or not, I love being with her. 

On the other hand, I see so many great qualities in Tanya and I'm drawn to her in so many ways. She is a grounded, well-balanced and beautiful woman and, without a doubt, the ideal woman to bring home to your parents. Any man would be proud to introduce her to the important people in his life.

I'm really excited to see my mom and dad next week. It's always great to see them and, although seeing them together is odd, I'm sure it'll be fun. I know both my parents will put their two cents in if I ask and, while their opinions aren't necessary because I know how I feel about these two women, it'll be nice to get a valuable outside observation. It's going to be a great week.  

Episode 8 
Air Date: 11/24/2004 

Tonight, when I saw Mary walk toward me, my heart leapt. She looked beautiful, as always, and I couldn't wait to finally tell her how I felt about her. She looked so nervous, and I just wanted to assure her that everything was going to be okay. This was the moment we had both waited our whole lives for. It was, without a doubt, one of the best moments of my life.

Tonight's Rose Ceremony, and this whole process in general, was certainly not easy. I had some ups and downs. Saying goodbye to Tanya was incredibly painful. But I would have gone through hundreds of those hard and painful experiences for the opportunity to meet Mary. I love this woman more than I can say. I cannot wait to call her my wife, and I am so thankful that we've both finally found the happy ending we've always dreamt of.